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10 мая 2023 04:00

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I feel so lonely ironic isn't it since am an only child am always alone but now I feel lonely now that I actually have friends I've never felt loneliest in my life being the therapist friend everyone venting to me leaning on me, when it's me no one has time when I'm on my lowest when I need someone to lean on well they're all busy so I have to pretend I'm fine, Well nothing have changed I've always been on my own

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10 мая 2023 04:00

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Is that normal guys 🤔🤔🤔🤔

አንድ ነገር ነበር ማለት ፍቅረኛየ ጋር Addis Ababa University 1 ላይ ነው ምንማረው ልጁ ጋር almost 1 አመታችን ነው


እና የሆነ ጓደኛው አለ እና ሁሌም ይጠቅሰኛል በቃ ለ 3 or ለ 4 ተቀምጠን እንኳን አያፍርም ፍቅረኛየ እቅፍ ሆኜ እያየም ሊያሽኮረምመኝ ይሞክራል እና ጓደኛህ ጥሩ ልጅ አይመስለኝም ብየ ያለውን ነገር ነገርኩት እሱ ግን ጭራሽ ካንች በላይ አዉቀዋለሁ ጥሩ ልጅ ነው አርፈሽ ተቀመጭ ብሎኝ እርፍ😳


ጥሩነት እና ፆታዊ ፍላጎት አይገናኝም ስለው እንደዉም ቢጠቅስሽ ምን ችግር አለው አላለም 😳

እና ግን እንደማይወደኝ እና ለኔ ክብር እንደሌለው ነው የተረዳሁት ቢሆን ኖሮ ግን እንዴት እንደዚ ያደርጋል ?

ወይ ደግሞ እሱም የጓደኛዉን ያጫወታል ማለት ነው አይደል 🤔🤔🤔


ጭራሽ አዕምሮሽን Positive አድርጊ እያለ መጥፎ ሰዉ እንደሆንኩ እንዲሰማኝ አደረገ

😭😭😭 ስለእዉነት መጥፎ ነኝ እንዴ

ማለት ምንድን ነው ማድረግ ያለብኝ አሁን ልቤ ዝቅ ብሏል
😭😭😭😭

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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boys or men ..guys if a girl dumped u over a voice & u saw her with your friends be akal what would u do or reaction be ,,,,pls don't skip i need everyone's perspective

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Hey Am here, M 21. For the people who are always negative towards everything or always dragging down everyone else with them
"Just because you are unhappy doesn't mean you should make everyone else miserable". We are glad to help u but u shouldn't ruin our life's ffs by forcing us to feel / be like u. Thanks for Ur time, stay safe✌🏼

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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I don't think the opposite of love is hate even though that's what we're taught during our childhood I think it's indifference the absence of emotion, resulting from the total absence, and I looked at you and I saw my best friend at some point in time I won't lie but now I see nothing it's sad I know but I think we've grown together to grow apart I have no hate for you in my heart but no love either, but I do hope for the sake of other people and for yourself you become the best version of you.

Sincerely,
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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Sup I'm just turned 24f and imma losee it I got to home and work that's it my family are strict so are my friends and I just want some one new like a new life the lonliness is crippling onghod I feel so miserable cuz I see my frinds once In a blue moon I just want someone to talk to make me forget this life

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Hi all i have a question for u guys i recently broke up with my gf. And i cant focus on anything i love her so much i need her i really need her in my life i want her back i dont know what to say to her. And when ever i want to say something i go blank and ill be speechless. I dont know wht to do help me eski

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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ግን ቆይ እናንተ ሰዎች you know that hell exists አይደል? Seems like we all have forgotten that!
እንዴት ነው ቆይ ዝሙትን እንዲህ ያቀለላችሁት? Don't you know that evertime you perform adultery that you are sacrificing your own body to the devil? Don't you know that you are worshipping him whenever you are having non-pure sex? Don't you know that you will have a soul tie with EACH and EVERY person you have sex?
And that means part of you remains in multiple people, and you are no more a whole person.
ለዚያ እኮ ነው ቃሉ "ሁለቱም አንድ ስጋ ይሆናሉ የሚለው!" And here you are!😁
ስንት ስጋ (ሰው) ልትሆኑ ነው ቆይ እናንተ? You guys are losing your Identities eko endeee!
(And when I am talking about sex, I am talking about make out, hook up blah blah too.)

በዚያ ላይ HELL IS REAL! እውነት እውነት እላችኋለሁ it is real! And it's terrifying than you have ever imagined. It is a place where ትሉ የማይሞትበት እና እሳቱ የማይጠፋበት!"
በቃኝ ለማይል ስጋችሁ, ለማይጠግብ ምኞታችሁ እና ለዚች እፍኝ ለማትሞላ እድሜያችሁ ስትሉ ዘላለማችሁ ላይ አትቀልዱ! ዘላለም አያልቅም÷ በሞት አትገላገሉትም እሺ?
ወይስ ዓመፀኞች የእግዚአብሔርን መንግሥት እንዳይወርሱ አታውቁምን? አትሳቱ፤ ሴሰኞች ቢሆን... ወይም አመንዝሮች...ወይም ከወንድ ጋር ዝሙት የሚሠሩ.... የእግዚአብሔርን መንግሥት አይወርሱም።"
(1ኛ ወደ ቆሮንቶስ ሰዎች 6:9)

Finally, I am not judging you guys. Because we are all the same. መነገር ያለበት መነገር ስላለበት ብቻ ነው!
ደግሞ አሁንም ቢሆን ለመመለስ እድል አላችሁ! የእግዚአብሄር ምህረት ዛሬም አላለቀም! እንደዛች አመንዝራ ሴት እግሩ ስር ብትወድቁ ይቅርታ አድርጎላችሁ ብቻ ሳይሆን
ደግማችሁ ሀጢአትን እንዳትሰሩ የሚያደርጋችሁን ሀይል ሰጥቶም ጭምር ነው የሚልካችሁ!
Come to him, he's waiting for you.
And if you need help degmo ke egziyabher betach bemchilew hulu ene alehu, you can Dm me.

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Let me get this shit out of me for once
I'm 22 M and I'm fucking lonely
Yes I said it fuck this covering up ende
Like i was the kinda kid who hadn't gat out of his house to hag out until I was 19 like shit and by hag out I mean gamezone until 12 seat max

U can tell form that university was fucked up time for me like I couldn't make friends, I was eating, studying .. all living in a dorm with ma self cuz each one of them changed there dorm to there friends mnamn ... plus I wasn't healthy getting sick and shit. So I started here at some college and still the feeling of depression went through the roof it gat to the point where I couldn't sleep for 3 days straight and my heart beating fast hands feeling numb ( turns out I had panic attack and some anxiety ) bcha I don't show it im kinda full of energy in others eyes.

I'm trying eko hanging out for brakes and at lunch with class mates but I just can't have good conversation with them cuz what there talking about and I'm at are just .. huge gap ... I'm on the path to help ma self off this hole while there talking about the girl there with and sex and shit (yaaa I never been with a girl forget sex even a physical touch )
12 hours of screen time and my grade going shity-er, watching evey movies and series for the second time and third, listening loud songs to escape the thought thinking Its just a phase and I can get better is nat working

I tried meditation working out or just occasional rand talk or tinder just to feel something but shit went mehhhhhhh

The good news is I have seen how suicidal shit end up with ma bro(survived btw) mom and dad in tears so even if once or twice a week it goes thorgh ma mind I won't give in to it 🤞

I don't smoke drink or anything. I'm cool caring and always trying to crack a smile but shit it spreading out like a fucking wind fire

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Hey...am a girl 22
And all my life i tried so hard to make it work with guys even if i only see guys as friends and am not sexually attracted at all...i think am asexual and romantically attracted to only females💋...and sometimes i just wish i live in the westerns cuz i would probably be dating right now but here...i have to always hide a huge part of me and act like am just waiting for the right guy for the people around me 😂...and they think am shy and yebet lej who don't date around as her peers...but the thing is the more u grow up the more u realize things about urself and i just wish that i have my girl around me.
Am a very knowledge driven person who is into philosophy,,fashion and i love swimming sometimes and i just want my kind of girl ...what r u guys think am i weird or is this normal feeling?

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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Hello
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I got a question i really need your answer boy's ..why are you scared the word friend i mean u guy's really freaked out when we mention the word friend . Like even if we say they are just friend ... eshi esun ok i get it but why do u guy's are so afraid of being friend zoned ene i don't get it if u guys have feelings n if we don't want to be in the relationship i mean doesn't mean we can't be friends anymore ong not fair enda especially if we were bffs man u were my friend eko for stupid feelings we can't be friends like always ong u are so selfish enaa am willing to help u lose it but u don't wan even talk if am not willing to be gf this dumb fr friendship is btr than relationship for me

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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I forced myself but I can't fall in love. My friends are pressuring me to get a bf because I never had one but I don't want to I am just not interested maybe am immune to love. I really tried guys gn wef enquan wend lisbegn flirt syaregu ydebregnal. It's not only relationships I don't like having friends too. And I don't care much about my family or anything for that matter. Do you think I can't fall in love? Do you think stg is wrong with me?

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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Hey this is 22 M..ya all girls wearing yetegelalete libs doesnt make you cool or cute rather it only makes you sexy bitch so all boys out there just wanna fuck you,put you on 'sex zone' not 'gf zone' as you put us in a friend zone.so please girls give value to your selfs before ya all get smashed and left alone for good.🤞

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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Hey 23M here I hope this will be regarded as a vent...the problem is that
I am so frustrated with my struggle to learn German. I've tried everything, from websites to language exchange programs, but it still feels like an uphill battle. I've been studying for what feels like forever, and I'm only at an A2 level. The queue for the Goethe Institute is too long, and I feel like I'm hitting a wall. I'm so jealous of people who seem to learn languages effortlessly, or those who have the luxury of learning in a classroom setting. It feels like I'm always two steps behind, and no matter how much effort I put in, I just can't seem to make progress. I wish there was someone here who has learned any language on their own, or even just a native German speaker who could help me out. It's exhausting to feel like I'm not making any progress, and it feels like there's no end in sight. I just want to be able to speak and understand German fluently, but it seems like an impossible task. Why does it have to be so hard?

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10 мая 2023 04:00

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Just how fucked up in the head could you be to actually like being sad??.... For me there's a good and bad type of sad.... The good one it's just good idk how to explain it "a good type of blue" bcha it's the feeling of sadness gn it also feels good.... Somehow .... How weird is that now?

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10 мая 2023 04:00

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What's up with Ethiopia and colourism especially in entertainment industry. I personally really love darker skinned girl but the media is dominated by light skinned people. It destroys so many girls confidence. What's up with that?

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Hey
So I'm 21(M). I'm currently in a university and I feel like I'm missing out on life. Ever since highschool ended ( pandemic hits) I've been on my phone, PC and never get the chance to go outside to have fun.
Highschool was so much better for me, had a lot of friends, good on my education, ....
But here in a university, everything changed, I don't talk to anybody unless they talk to me first, never send a message on the group chat except for asking questions about class, have literally 0 female friends( had a lot of them in highschool) I don't even know names of my classmates and we've been learning together for like 3 semesters.
But I still have amazing dorm mates. I guess there's something good.

Generally I want to feel something, do something fun because I feel nothing now. I'm not sad but I'm not happy either, I'm not stressed but not chill either.

Anyways thank you.

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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What's good people. M 20 This is for the uni students. I'm just curious how y'all have free time / make the best of Ur time in uni. My routine is simple wake up -> go to class -> eat -> gym -> sleep. That's all I do maybe once or twice a month I go out with my friends. I usually prefer to spend my time alone watching movies or reading books in my dorm but nth more. So my question is how do y'all make the best of Ur time to create this so called uni memories where u gonna be talking in the future about how fun and amazing Ur uni life was?

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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Hey ቤተሰብ 22 አመቴ ነው እስካሁን ምንም አይነት የፍቅርም ይሁን የወሲብ ግንኙነት አድርጌ አላውቅም ነገር ግን ላለፉት 7 አመታት ፖርን ቀን በቀን አያለሁ በቃ ያላየሁት አይነት የለም እና ባለፉት 4 አመታት ደግሞ ሴጋም በቀን 2 ወይም 3 ጊዜ አደርጋለሁ እና ሴት ባየሁ ቁጥር የማስበው ሴክስ ብቻ ነው በቃ እንዴት አድርጌ እንደማደርጋት ምናምን እና አሁን አሁን ደግሞ ፍላጎቴ ሁሉ አናል Sim 2 ብቻ ነው የማየው የማስበው ሁሉ እሱን ነው አንዳንዴ ጌይ ሴክስ ሳይ ወንድ ማድረግም ያምረኛል እና እንደዚህ ያጋጠማችሁ አላችሁ አስቡት በህይወቴ ሴት እንኳን ስሜ አላውቅም

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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I just wanted to get things off my chest. Those of you who have a mom and a dad and born into a good family you are so lucky i envy you. My father passed away 7 years ago. I never had a mother she gave birth to me and married immediately to another person i was born out of wedlock. I grew up with my father he was the best father in the world but he left this world ሳልጠግበው. On the bright side though i have a mother (who raised me). She's the only person i got in this whole world. I do have half siblings but we don't speak for inheritance reasons they want me dead for good cause i inherited more than 75%than all. Yes i have inherited good money to sustain me for life but i feel a big void. As anyone (grownups)get close to me its for their own use. I had my childhood stolen from me. My half sister was my legal guardian and abused me in all ways i had no one to go to so i dealt with it. She used all the money that was left for me and when i was going to get her questioned by law she left (shes an american citizen).I have a good bf he's the next person i have in this entire world. Other than that it's just me, myself and I. How does it feel to have someone want you? How does it feel to have a family that if you got into something you can run to? How does it feel to even be in relationship and if that doesn't work you still have your family? How does it feel to have people to celebrate events with?how does it feel to know a person loves you for you not for your money?So much more i clearly don't. My biggest dream in life is to make my own family in the future and make sure my kids won't see a glimpse of what i went through.

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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I'm M and 20yr old
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I am facing a challenge in which I feel that no one can understand me. I have a strong desire to live my life on my own terms and to let go of everything and everyone that may be holding me back, as long as it does not harm others. However, I am struggling with an internal conflict that is preventing me from doing so. I am considering severing my relationships with my friends, girlfriend, and even my family, but I am aware that doing so may leave me feeling vulnerable and weak. I am seeking guidance on how to move forward and find someone who can help me become the person I am meant to be, rather than someone who wants to shape me in their imagination. Despite my efforts, I find it difficult to express my true feelings, and I often wish for a higher power to rely on. I am hoping to find someone who can provide me with advice on how to stop caring about what others think and be true to myself.

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09 мая 2023 04:00

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A couple of days back, a by passer was kinda momentarily interested in me. And my entire body started shaking. It was very momentary and maybe misdirected because I kinda think it might be meant for the gorgeous friend of mine sitting beside me at that moment and the guy was just not rude enough to point out that he actually meant her and not me. After the moment passed, I felt so ashamed. I have been trying so hard to be enough for my, to stop the people pleasing and the seeking for approval traits of mine I've had and been battling for the longest time and seeing the effect a random guy maybe, possibly, giving me the slightest bit of attention, I felt soo ashamed. Now, I kinda feel sorry myself. Not in the, 'you're pathetic' kinda way but sorry for the little girl in me who is always going to rejoice in the tiniest bit of acceptance and attention for she has always felt small, unseen, unheard; for the little girl I'm trying to desperately silence and kill but resurfaces with the tiniest gesture of kindness, approval and love; for the girl who is used to being tolerated and not celebrated. Like most people, I love love, and like most, I have made myself believe that I am not worthy of it. But I phrase it as,'I don't need love, I don't need a man. I am okay on my own.'. That encounter made me realise that what I once thought was a strength is just a cave I put myself in, an armour, for I am just another scared person desperate for love.
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09 мая 2023 04:00

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...I need help I am 19 years old male, who is addicted to PMO ever since the 8th gread,I am venting this here because I need you guys to tell me what I am missing here. There was times when I was fully invested in resolving the problem and I have been trying for 2 years almost, And I am in a point now that I don't even put the work in anymore ,Like I don't want to be concious about it any more, Like it goes like this I will get an urge ,I control it ,feel a little bit proud then I will feel the urge again and then I just give in to it. I can't say I am unconscious when doing it cause my brain keeps talking to me the whole time like "Don't do it " , "Come on you know this stage " , "Trust me you won't like the consequence of it " but I just keep going and going to opening my laptop and opening chrome and typing in the keyboard. After I finish my brain will go like "See" .and will bring all the reasons why I did it and will try to make me feel good as hard as he can. Its like I have two section of my brain arguing. The cycle will go like this every goddamn time .The think the term for this is called revolving door syndrome.which I heard it itself is a stronger addiction than PMO. The thing I am worried about is that what if I be comfortable to this scenario. my brain just keeps try to recover as fast as it can to make me feel better . I know this technique is good because staying in the relapse-guilty state is not good at all but I don't want to be the guy who is not doing his best but he thinks he is doing the best cause he don't feel guilty the next day and repeating this circle every year to get to a point where he thinks he knows everything about the addictions behaviour and won't accept any suggestions cause his way was comfortable enough for him... I just need you guys to help me figure out what is really going on and how to get my self out of this loop I trapped myself with. Thank you for your time. I would appreciate any comment.

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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so I saw him yesterday at a wedding waking with his family with those pretty eyes and a perfect tuxedo and he did look at me I don't know if I was staring too much or if I was in front of him but we made eye contact I got panicked and looked away we continue that technically speaking I continue every little he did catch me seeing. he was perfect for the bucket list of my bf material but he was a wedding crush, not real-life love, so I said u will be in my heart whilst I attend a wedding

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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this might not be a place for this but i don't have a platform to speak on so at least some people will read this. if you're orthodox this is mainly for you, how many of you know that the orthodox church believes that mary was resurrected like jesus and went up to heaven? https://eotcmk.org/e/filseta-the-fast-of-the-assumption-of-st-mary/ you can look into this document but it explains the orthodox church's beleif that mary was resurrected and went up to heaven in glory. also this belief about mary's death and glorious resurrection and assumption came in the 8th century. orthodox will tell you that it was from the time of the apostles but they have absolutely no proof of any of that. many orthodox will tell you Mary was sinless which is why she resurrected(you can find that in the website) . My question is what's up with all these claims, none of these claims have been written by any of the apostles. dont you think you're putting a little too much faith on the priests and religious leaders. have you forgot that the people who denied christ back in the day were the religious leaders and priests. they were also the ones who believed and obsessed over the "fathers" way which is another way of saying our own way , or man's ways or traditions over god word. These priests are nothing but people pleasing blind guides going and leading people straight to hell. because think of it, they're not repenting, they're not telling you to repent. if you gave them 60 minutes, they would speak lies for 30 minutes and truth for 30. the prayers are also half true half false. so that you will not be able to be born again. jesus said to the old priest that if he wasn't born again he would not see or enter into the kingdom of heaven. God is calling you to repent and be born again. that's when you will find mercy. you won't find mercy hanging with those who are going to get the wrath and judgment of god for disobeying his commandments.

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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You know what I learned after discovering this channel?

Most people's problems revolve around 3 things

1. Love/Relationships

2. Sex

3. Money

It seems as though most of us are just fucking horny😂 no offense.

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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Does anyone else have literary zero friends. Like zero. Im friendly with people and i have many people that i know but i just dont seem to have someone to call a friend. I have one friend tho but i just realized she doesn't care for me that much. So most of the time im alone. Im 17 and there are many times where i sit alone during lunch time and stuff. I just dont understand why i haven't found someone who likes me. So i just want to know from ppl like me how do you deal with this?

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08 мая 2023 04:00

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I'm a 22 YO female and when I was a teenager I used to think I was incapable of falling in love but I had a guy friend I met when I was 14 and by the time I turned 20 I finally admitted to myself that I really loved him. I usually run away when a guy confesses his feelings to me because every r/ship I've been in ended with me breaking up with the person because they complained I don't give them enough attention or time, or open up to them, even tho I warn them before we get into a relationship and I make it very clear what kind of gf I'm gonna be but they think they can eventually 'fix me' so they pretend to be ok with it but then once we're dating they try to change me.. and even though they keep complaining we never solve the issue because I'm stubborn and don't want to force things just to make them happy. I'm not only an introvert but extremely anti social so I'm just not capable of showing affection like they are. I wish I was. I feel the need to compensate physically for what I lack emotionally so whenever they're trying to have a personal conversation or try to talk about our future I initiate something sexual and it ends with us having sex and the cycle repeats every time we're together.. I use sex as a tool to avoid a deeper personal connection (ironically I don't even enjoy sex) And then eventually I realize I'm not good for them bc I'm not willing to change so I just break up with them. All 4 r/ships I've been in ended this way, and none of them lasted more than 6 months. But when he told me he loved me, for the first time in my life I didn't leave I actually felt pretty calm and assured but we stayed friends because I knew that if we got into a r/ship it'd fall apart because I'm incapable of being consistent, and when you're dating someone you don't have the freedom to create some distance like you would in a friendship. I don't like calling or texting often, or hang out in person more than once or twice a month but if I started dating him I knew I would have to do these things. And I don't think it's right to force myself to do things I don't want to do just because that's what I'm 'supposed to do' as a gf. I didn't explain this to him because I didn't want him to try to convince me or wait for me. I wanted him to date other girls and find someone more emotionally available than I am (not sure if that's normal to want for someone you love but I guess I'm just not a possessive person?) To be honest I'm a really selfish person and just because the friendship was enough for me I decided to stay friends even though I know damn well that it wasn't fair for him. I hoped I would work on my problems on my own and then maybe I'd give it a shot if he still wants me by then lol. But then suddenly for some reason the love I thought I had for him completely disappeared. I have no idea why. I just woke up one day and realized I didn't love him anymore, just like that. That was depressing because I thought it would last a long time. It made me feel human, capable of love, so I wanted it to last. But then it was gone just like that, which made me question was it even love to begin with if it fades away like this? It's been years since this happened and we're not even friends anymore and he has moved to another country since then and we'll probably never see each other but I guess I'm just venting here bc I think about what happened sometimes and I struggle to understand it. I've started to wonder that maybe old couple who stay happily married forever fell out of love at some point but just stayed together bc of the mutual love, attachment, and respect they still have for each other. Maybe that's all love is? It's temporary and it'll fade so you might as well pick someone kind to be with and build your life with so that when the feelings inevitably fade the respect will remain bc they're a good person? This is the conclusion I've come to, so if anyone disagrees feel free to tell me why. Thanks.

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07 мая 2023 08:30

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Hey this is more of an advise for the guys the best advise you will ever hear in your life I hope this changes your mind set about woman's here I go if you ever noticed
Woman are good to you when they see value on you woman are terrible to you when they see no value on you. Men actually are nicer naturally than woman in terms of we might see a woman and we may not like her then we will try to be nice to the woman. But woman when they don't want some one or some thing they discard people you ain't shit to them until you have a value you need some thing that shines to have value. in society we have been programed to see woman are always victms so woman are not that innocent as you think they are not specal as you think they are none of that they are not special until you decide they are special they are not valuable until they provide you a value. so bro open your eyes to the reality and have a high value compared to other mens and don't give attention to a woman thats the weapon she uses to control you the one woman you think is specal she ain't special There are 3500000000 female population how can she really be specal bro 😂

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