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21 июля 2023 17:42

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What's up everybody
Am here not to vent but is just me or is there somebody else like I got not single vent that relates wz my life I mean no one vent abt being single for life 😁 or not seen p thing in his entire life except the one used to come out.
What i want to say is ,is it fair to here someone with three or four exe cry abt his new gf ignore him and shit while I don't know what to be in r/ship look like or girl complaining abt boys they don't respect woman all are cheaty blabla there is alot of cute and descent girl player boys didn't get a chance to f*

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Here is the thing i love life but i really want to experience death. Its not that i am sucidial which i was but thank god i am alive. I am better. Gn like i just wannna know whats all the fuss about. Because like you know that feeling in your core which tells you purpose isn't actually just success but to just exist to be in sync with your soul but then you realize you have been existing till now and you weren't living. I feel like forming my own opinions and just trying to know a lil bit more makes me feel emotionally mature at times then i question the very basis of my foundation then I feel like I am a misfit. I don't fit in with the typical religion oriented people and even the atheist more open optimistic ones. I don't fucking know. But the thing is I love to be my utter self . And I know we all have our unique complex paths but what if I don't have a path. What if I am just a spirit. Always moving always evolving. What if my path isn't a path its just whatever it is at the moment. What if i have to die to understand whatever it is that i am missing now? Why do we have to be stuck on one thing? Why can't we just be? Live and die, die and live

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Have y'all ever met smo, who won't let there self be happy? Idk what's with her? I asked her out and she refuses. I say okay, we still friends. I care about her, ik she doesn't talk openly with others so I try not to be selfish. And she says let's not talk I say okay, keza she goes for my bsf. And she be tryna make me jealous, but I was never jealous, even when he brags about her liking him. Wht hurts is why she wants to hurt me. Then I did smt stupid and I think it hurt her. Keza weeks passed and I told her how I feel so I don't regret. And she said I don't feel the same way, I said okay. I won't push it. She told me she was dating smo, idk why she has to tell me that gn I said aight. Ena I told her to block me and she did. But then she has to fucking vent with my name, quoting the things that happened, nd saying I was one of her last friends. Saying she wishes that I have stayed while she pushed. I mean wht am I supposed to do? Is wht I have done not enough? Does relationship have to be pushed more than that? I don't even want a serious relationship but I was going to settle for her. I can't push more than this, I don't deserve this. Ena I don't hate you, I don't regret meeting you. You will be one of my favorites chapters.
I won't hate you cuz u hurt me cuz I know there will come a day when I'll miss the heartaches you give me. Bcha I'll miss you Mitete.( Ur emoji smiles too)

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Ahh life I have been fighting for almost for 21 years since the day I came to this world I think it's the time to give up....I just wanna go wanna disappear

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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I never thought that I would vent but here I am 24 F
I wish my problems were relationship and stuff like that bye asbalew even I don't have any eko gn my problem is my mom. Betam amuatal ena kemot new yeterefechhu gn endeza sttagel manm dewlo alnegeregnm even my father. Esua bemoans behiwet mekakel hona manm mnm alalegnm.. kesamn behuala semaw emebatan motech yalugn new yemeselegn mehal meged lay kuma new yekerwwt gn ahun terfalech bcha bedenb enkuan awrchat alakm enatam byat alakm even kayehuat 11 amet honegn eko😭 efuuu amlaki mn yshalegnal lemetakemiya enkuan my little sister nat yelakechu kesew bat eyeserach. Ena gn yhaw zm bye malkes. Even sra sfelg full time new emilugn beza lay temarim slehonku endat ladrg. Ezih emnorbachew batesebocham timrt lay keld ayawkum ezih lemedresa bzu waga keflewal even ahunm eyekefelulgn new. Eski plz plz sra endat new yemtagegnut eeee keclass gar emihad sra..enatin merdat masakem alebgn ebakachhu. ...gn lemndnew enatoch emimotut ena emitamemut eeeee😭😭 bcha hula malkes hone sraye ahun motech alugn eyalku amlaki hoy ebakhn yesuan mot lena adrgew. ...eski endezih aynet chgr yasalefachhu plz endat new emiyalfew eeee endat new tekara yehonachhut.......sry slabezawt

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20 июля 2023 14:05

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I’m tired !I just wanna die harmlessly, only suggestions please 🙏

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20 июля 2023 04:05

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I'm 22 man
I have no idea where to start but when I'm going straight to the point, recently I discovered or understand that there is no love , man there is no true love ,u can only get true love from your parents only. ..bicha relationship mnamn bezi gize(generation) yene nw mitlw set yelm man kante yetshale sew esk meta dires yachwtlihal believe me , motkulsh kanchi lelal mnamn. ..Please boys atizrekreku be a man , focus on building ur self , care for ur mom and dad they are the only one who stayed at ur worst time. Don't give a fuck about girls ,enesu nachw lifeachnn miyameskakilut ande eraskn build karek behula yidersal man teslfw be werfa nw mitebikuk,but early age lay eraskn bulid satareg gena timro lay honk ee ye betsb chanka lay honk enesu malt they are venom for ur future man, lenesu ymnsetwn gize le dad na mom mn ale bedenb binsetachw mn ale behiwot eyalu tolo dersenlachw siketama honen lifachwn sinazmnlachw bimasayachw man , hulem abrwn aykoyum , u gonna understand me when u lost them....... so finally as conclusion man lets build our future man, let's be a man, a man who support his family, a man who is millioner/bill.

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20 июля 2023 04:05

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Ok so endemangnawm ethiopiawi zare betam dekmogn tegosakuye kesra wede bet lhed taxi eyetebeku neber. Botaw demo self yele mn yele zm blo megafat new i suck at megafat ene demo, so i usually stand there longer than i should. Kezam i noticed this beautiful girl ጥላ bota gar koma dar ly, cause it was raining a bit, and tera askebariw was making her laugh. But i didn't give it much thought.
And thennn finally taxi simeta migafaw sew hulu lela taxi ly neber focusachew so i have a whole taxi to my self megafat yelem bye (1 bota bcha neberew actually kelela bota slone chno mimetaw) ena ዘው bye lgeba sl this tera askebari literally blocked me be eju and he started calling that mtamr lj tla ly yekomechwn and then she took my seat😩.
So i had to wait for 25 minutes be znab lela taxi eskagegn🙂.

The bottom line is beauty privilege is real. And i hope that tera askebari get what he deserves cause boyyy did he ruin my night😭

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20 июля 2023 04:04

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26 Female.. 👋... feeling confused... never felt so loved and appreciated he treats me like a queen he is not even rich gen balechiw erasu he tries to take care of me.. it's been 8 months andley kehonen all he talks about is our future and having kids menamn I have been in a lotttt of relationships gen this time it feels so right but I recently found out that he talks to this other girl he saved her contact by his sister's name so I wouldn't know...he seems so suspicious when I touch his phone he takes it away from me telling me that there are secrets of other people so he wouldn't show it to me... yehone gize I got the chance and looked into his phone and texts ewedshalew menamn online gebtesh video chat enadreg menamn eyale yawaratal when I confronted him amenelegn he apologized crying and all his hands shaking menamn betam dengetual i said it's okay gen beka I couldn't trust him ever since.. it's been like 3 weeks ena after I forgave him for that he has been even nicer but I don't see any future.. we had a fight about 4 months ago that I still kept in touch with my ex gen he made me promise that I would stop and I actually did stop.. but the reason he gave ahun is that he doesn't trust me yet because he thought I cheated so he just wanted a back up... gen he promised he would stop ahun.... should I give him a chance?

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20 июля 2023 04:04

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So from the vents i have read so far, most of yall are occupied with something (eventhough i fonud some of 'em overwhelming ). Yall are so much involved either in relationships or work stuff and classes mnamn, and i am not engaged in any of those currently, btw i am 20f  campus student right now yaw break selhone ebet nen ena i am feeling a little disappointed on myself because, when i look at people my age,they are productive in some way like they are making money on their own or  they found love (ive never been in relationship kinda stuffs)and work hard in classes(i dont have exactly nice grades) but everyone seems to have  so much experience on life  even tanashoche. Ena i am concerned where my situation is going ebet tekemche either I watch netflix kenun mulu or just yaw read class related books. I dont have any social life biyans hang out larg mnamn bel enkuan. if i go out there in the world beka, i would get lost like idk anything whats out there even m not intrested beka i am literally becoming furniture . Furniture rasu eko use alew Ene no use like eat and sleep yhone everyday routine  new yalegn.

I fear m gonna end up single, broke, stupid .... if i dont do sth right away and regret endemaregew yisemagnal wedefit bezi edmeye mnm salsera bye..   Does someone relate to this or is it just me endi aynet situation wst yalewt? And how can i get out of it?

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20 июля 2023 04:04

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Im a 25yo guy and all my life i have been careful to not go too far with girls. I have a few exes and i havent had sex with any of them. Believe it or not i actually tried to wait till marriage. First it was for religious reasons but now im not so strong in my religion but still i believe that if i want my future wife to be a virgin, she should be able to expect the same thing from me. Ofcourse i've done some sexual stuff in the past but its mostly foreplay (2nd base stuff) while i was even in non-serious relationships....idk if this is a weird thing coming from a guy but i stand by it.

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20 июля 2023 04:04

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Hi....i am a 22M living in adama,, whose lately feeling lonley... Mlt i used to have a lot of friends but the boys got jealous cuz i get most of the female attention..... And we parted..... And then i started to be friends with girls and enesu demo they catch feelings and ruin the friendship..... I cant love demo im like a cold rock just numb.... I dont ask for help cuz we men dont do that shit... society didn't raise us that way....so my vent here is pointless 😅😅but what do u guys do when u feel lonley like only u in this world?

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20 июля 2023 04:00

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I've been listening to Hurts Me (trippie redd) all day and it reminded me of someone. We're strangers again after all these years but I hope you're happy wherever life has taken you and that you know how important you were to me. We'll probably never even see each other again but I know I'll never find what we had with someone else and I don't want to anyways tbh. "Out of mind, out of sight."

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19 июля 2023 18:09

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Hello guys F23 to make it short I know this guy for only a week but we have met like every other day and it was like this strong initial attraction but since I’m a little restricted I decided not to label our situationship a relationship yet even when he asked so long short I kinda stood him up one night although it wasn’t my intention and he got mad I guess n then he didn’t call the next 2 days. And I called him twice n he picked up and said he was busy mnamn gn no that’s not the reason bc he used to call even when he was In his office so anyways I called him many times last night but he ignored me what I’m trying to say is when I finally started to let my heart open this is the kind of guy that creeps in and so I’m sad and bummed this ended like that

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19 июля 2023 18:09

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26 here

Today i was reading some vents of course, it is about relationships.  It got me thinking how i'm going to look like in relationship if i got into one. No luck yet. But ምኞት አይከለከል መቼስ. I'm not going to send good morning text (Never), not a random text neither you know something like ካለንቺ ህይወቴ ባዶ ናት። የህይወት ትርጉሙ የገባኝ አንቺን ካገኘሁ በኃላ ነው አይነት ነገር i don't think i will understand the meaning of life in my lifetime. I may spend a lot of time together in private. And definitely not going call her baby, Honey...no no Never. Not the type of person who tell his feeling in such way I can write thou a letter or something longer than a text.
And i don't know why i'm writing this.

P.s(what is ps stand for gn) when i write this i was thinking to add the Letter F next to my age to make those stupid horny guys read my vent. But i don't get anything from those useless comment  so i changed my mind

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Okay hey der...here is something I wrote for my self after being drying &ignored by a girl that i'm very obsessed wid

-Remember the feeling that she makes u feel-unwanted,lonely- may be u r unwanted but ur not lonely u got ur self ድንግል ማርያም n አትርሳ krstos ሂወቱን ሰቶ ወዶሀል  who cares if the world doesn't love u if the creator of the world does... just believe him and be happy 😊 he knows what to do... now you gotta understand u can't push anything..if krstos gives u no one can take it from u if he Doesn't gives u no one can ለምን ይከፈሀል በቃ ሀብታም ነች ቆንጆም ነች ግን አንተም ቆንጆ ነህ ሀብት ደሞ የ እግዚአብሄር ነው እሱ በ 1 ሌት ሀብታም አድርጎ ድሀም አድርጎ ያሳድራል እረ አይክፋህ በ ማርያም በቃ እርሳት ቤተሰቦችህ አሉ አምላክህ አለ የሚወዱህ ሰውች አሉ እነሱን እይ በቃ ጊዜህን አታባክን ለ ሰው መኖርህን አቁም ሂወት አችር ነች ያስደሰተህን አስደስተህ የወደደህን ወደህ ኑር የጠላህን ፈገግ ብለህ እለፍ ለ ሰው ችግርህን አትናገር ለ ፈጣሪህ እንጅ....እግዚአብሔር ከኔጋ ከሆነ I got every thing ማርያምየን ንገራት ወለላይቱን ሰላም ለኪ ብለህ ጀምረህ አዋያት ምን ይሳናታል ልጇ ይሄን ምድር የጨበጠ አአ ዴ ሀያል እሱ ቸር እሱ ፍቅር እሱ ሌላው ከንቱ ሰውማ ይክዳል ሰውማ ይሰለቻል ሰውማ አብዝተህ ስቶደው ይጠላል.... love ur self,may be you are not that value for some ppl but for GOD u mean a lot.... 😮‍💨

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Hey 21M here,
These days we're on a break from campus and I'm being stuck at home really sucks, and it's getting kinda lonely in here. I need a best friend, someone I could call my own and they could call me theirs one where we know everything about each other one where we are the top priority for each other, I have friends gn ik I'm missing an important life long bond rather than a short lived weak bond, thanks for reading.

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Megenagna and Leba

Picture this: Megenagna, one of the most infamous areas, known for its lively atmosphere and unique charm (Leba🤫). 🌆💫 And hey, I've got a question for you—do you think there could be anyone out there who would willingly choose this kind of experience? 🤔 Well, I bet Megenagna would be their number one choice without a doubt! 🥇💥

But here's the twist—what about the working experience in this buzzing area? You might be worried about your hard-earned money being swiped from your socks. 😱💸 Well, fear not, because Megenagna has its ways of keeping things thrilling 🤯. They'll prove to you that they've got nothing to learn when it comes to making things exciting and carefree! 😂. 🥶 Where is my money? This is what your face be like when the music on your earphones stops: 💀🙄 a kinda face, please don't tell me my phone is gone.

That's why, my friends, I believe nobody's really taking any action to stop this unique industry from flourishing. Who knows, maybe someone out there has seen the immense potential and is secretly incubating it for all the fun-seekers and adventure-lovers! 🕵️‍♂️🔍

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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I know most of you will come after me but i need to say it! moms are sooooo overrated

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21 июля 2023 17:42

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Hey
Am 20M ena bechega neg ke 1 amet befit fkrga nebreg altsmamanem telyayen bezich aned amtuset with benefit mokrku besum destga nebreku gn esuam tetag wed wechi hadech ena ahun kegona sew yasflgega weys bechegneta yeshalgal?

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20 июля 2023 04:05

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24f ,so there was this guy i was so attached to. i mean we talked day and night everyday. i'm not that kinda person like who dedicates time and energy to connect with another person but idk how it happened with him. eventhough we talked daily things felt stagnant ,both of us didn't open up minamn our convo was more of like jokes and silly stuffs .Then i started questioning if that was what i want but i couldn't end it cause i was too attached so by default i started getting pissed with simple stuffs and so on keza things got cold between us yaw eventually we stopped talking .

Currently i do not want him back in my life cause ik it was not healthy and the whole thing drained me ,we lack alot of things .but i could not get him outta my head .what do i do to move on?

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20 июля 2023 04:05

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Hello fellas iam 19 M
I finally got some courage to vent ,actually its a question please and i need it fr
So obsessed with this girl and my mind is killing me from inside by remembering those memories and moments i had with her (which i will vent about it later). Man she got me obsessed fr. I think of her even when i am not noticing it every thing is relating to her even when i am zoning out all i think is about her . I used to smoke weed happily but now i quit because my mind totally starts to think about her 100% when i am high and the inner voices started blaming me for letting her go i cant even enjoy the weed that i am attached to because of her nafkot .(the only way i can say it is that i really hate the way that i love her .now i need advice so please tell me people how can i lose my feelings for her and how can i forget her. I am going crazy and i am even losing my friends cuz i am being different . Please please help me.

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20 июля 2023 04:05

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Wake up late....go to classes 3 days a week....return home....spend time in ur phone scrolling here n there....drink coffee till "sostegna" like elders.....then walk at night while headset on...sit on z spot around Abrhot library n watch around....return home...sleep

And here we go again, here comes tomorrow....the loop continues

That's how i live. I am M 25 FYI, thank you for reading this🙏🏽...

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20 июля 2023 04:04

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I am confused with something and my heart start to ache really these days here is the situation I was talking with the guy who live in another continent (of course we are originally both from the same country) over a phone for about 6 months now at the start he used to call me almost everyday now a days he keep calling me on weekends only his excuse is since we live in different country our time zone is different, of course when he called most of the time I am at work or sleeping likewise when I call him back he may be at work or sleeping so we end up to talk to each other only on weekends only for hours....so while we are talking to each other most of the time I talked about work, ask if there is anything new thing happening in our life and so on since I have never been in relationships till now Idk how to have conversations with him like relationships talks and sometimes he will tell his plan about marriage that he want to start a family with in 1 year.....so the confusion starts here I keep waiting his phone call every weekend and my heart start to ache really bad I guess really...but he asked me about my future plans interms of marriage idk why I won't tell him that I want to get married also in near future....he has qood qualities but not sure about some of his behavior it is confusing not what personally choose for my future partner so

what shall I do should I keep talking to him or ignore?

Is this normal to have this confusing feeling for another person since this feeling is all new for me

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20 июля 2023 04:04

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These days I have been having constant headache all day. i try to check what causes it gn i couldnot figure it out. sometimes mehal chnklaten weter argo yeyezegnal other times the side of my head yamegnal some days it becomes so extreme in one side including my kindb and eye on that side and brehan yebelte yerbeshegnal keza demo i can't even sleep through the pain. and i can't even magonbes yamegnal like sometimes I can't even mankesakes chnklaten. It is getting too reptitive and putting me out of work there are also other feelings like makleshlesh. keza betechemari i get super tired like a 10 minute walk will unwind me (it isnot fit alemehon i usually do 30 mintues walk easily mnamn when i am fine) ena kenun mulu sisera endewale sw nw yemidkmegn. ena mamshet rasu alchlm 4 seat akebabi etegnalew keza minimum 8 seat tegnche nw yemenesaw gn ke alga mewtat eskikebdegn dres yekebdegnal. i feel the tiredness on my back too much tnsh bejerrbayee stegna ref yelal. is this common? what can be the causes. Doctors out here please help. if there is anyways to not feel tired and not have headache.
Additional info: the headache has been coming and going for the past 2 months mnamn and the tiredness has been coming and going the past few years. Also I have a history of gastritis.
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20 июля 2023 04:04

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Hi

I’m 29 and I hate it.
Most of you here are younger and your concerns are mostly about relationships minamn. What about other things like your productivity, income, building the life you want and so on.
I’m mad at myself for not reaching my potentials, aren’t you?
I have used to have every kind of excuse, the government, lack of capital, friends and family minamn gn after all I just know it’s my fault. if you are not in a war zone, it’s all your fault for not reaching your limits.
When you realize that you start to engage the so called self development. It’s hard … It’s very hard to develop yourself… usually you find yourself lost in this world of self development. That’s what happened to me.
Self development is good but you have to know why you develop yourself, why do you even live? what’s your purpose in life? if you don’t know that you will not have a true desire. you will just have wishes and cravings, and those are a recipe for struggle and misery.
For most people their religion solves these questions or they don’t ask, they just follow the crowd. I’m not neither. For people like me it’s difficult to have a true desire so that you will become action oriented.
I know it’s cliche but you have to have a purpose and a vision and then a dream … I’m in the process of finding my purpose. It’s just feels like time is against me.
I hope you find something in my vent. thanks and feel free to comment your thoughts

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20 июля 2023 04:00

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male 23....When i see the vents peoples are depressed, desperate,,, what is going on 😳 why...like im so happy everyday..i think all you have to do is pray..dont do things that is bad for you...be postive in the right way..exercise...btw im Orthodox..thank you for reading..love y'all

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20 июля 2023 04:00

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I had in relationship but it’s doesn’t work he cheated on me gn I love him btam and ye weekend reminder yemilewn music Nw ene life lay eyehone yalew ereschew snor ymetal and sorry mnamn ylegnal kal ygebalgnal enen edemayaskefagn 6 months molan eyelemengn and eyemalelgn I feel like ykrta barglet des ylegnal 1 chance bsetew but ….

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19 июля 2023 18:09

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Hi I am a student having a hard time in school, I study in a private university and I can’t see to focus sometimes I think I have adhd or something and where I am from you need education to survive. I started giving up now I worry about girls and parties, in which I have no success in that as well. Is this my life, am not smart nor social? I feel like a lost cause.

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19 июля 2023 18:09

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I dont usually do this but my heart feels a little heavy today and I'm trying to air her out.

1. I often pride myself in thinking I’m nice. In fact I actually believe it. But I struggle with jealousy and hate and I don’t know how to stop it.

2.  I don’t understand love. I’ve said ‘I love you’ a lot but each time the words leave a bitter aftertaste in the back of my tongue reminding me why I shouldn’t have uttered them out. They scrape themselves out of my throat leaving me bruised so no wonder I can’t swallow down your ‘I love you too's when you say it back.

3. I don’t ask for help. I exhaust all possible options and drain all of my energy in vain until I can’t utter out any more pleas of assistance. I wasn’t always like this. I used to voice my needs over and over but unfortunately it fell on people who made me believe I was asking for too much and now I can no longer tell what the bare minimum even is.

4. I will trust you with my life but not in simple things like when you tell me I look beautiful or after asking you if you’ve seen the remote. Which takes me to my next problem, priorities. I just need to sort them out. Sigh!

5. I'm an overachiever. My whole life people have put me on a pedestal. But all that has become a has been. I guess I've reached a point in life where I'm not prisoned with expectations anymore so inspired me is like now what? I've dumbed down severely currently I'm quite embarrassed to acknowledge it tbh.

6. I miss my family, but I refuse to go home or get help from them. The thought of financially relying on them scares me for some reason even though I'm 21 and living by myself for over 3 years. I feel like I can’t really go back to being provided for even though they are well off and have no issue about it.

7. I don’t get angry. Ever. I just get sad and overthink about all the things I should have said or done. I dont talk back or raise my voice. I don’t fight for what I want. I give in and let people walk over me. Then I convince myself that I don't really need it anyways. It's quite pathetic.

8. I’m loud and cheerful and funny but quite the loner. Every time I lay down at night, I conjure someone up and talk to him about all of the things I’m afraid to say to you. And he tells me all the things I want to hear, things you’ll never say. The irony...you know I pride myself in being communicative too.

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