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01 октября 2024 04:00

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I'm 22 yrs female I need help I lost my virginity last year Ena it was so painful that even got me traumatized I was bleeding like I was slaughtered on the neck gorf nber yehonew Ena I didn't expect that at all and my partner look at me in the most weird way he never looked at me that way before, that made me very insecure the blood couldn't stop so I told him to take me to the clinic he was ashamed of me I saw it in his face but mnm mareg alchalkum I was afraid for my life because I was bleeding non stop but before we go there I fainted and lost my teeth that day besmam Ena ahun I have new life it's been almost 2 months since we started relationship with my new bf and I couldn't have the courage to tell him about this and one day we were making out mnamn Ena he tried to have sex with me but I was not able to do it my mind keep reminding me of what happened last time so told him I'm not ready and he said okay
Guys please help me is this a natural thing or should I be worried mn baderg larg girls please Iet me know if you had the same experience  I need ur advice so bad😫😫😫

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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I am Mercy 25 live in Ethiopia i used to study in Italy came back after graduation
I currently have a boyfriend same age as me and we are planning wedding after a year i know his family his know mine as well. Our sex life is good like we are wild. Generally we are a perfect couple
But here is the problem with us am gonna keep it short not to make it boring. When we come to real life he is kind of childish like the way we communicate am more of an adult than he is when ever we have arguments he said he isn’t interested to talk to me at all we are adults to solve every problem we need to talk (remember this is just the basic thing ) The way he handle things is very childish i am more of a calm girl. Whenever something happens i try to be as chill as possible not to add a fire the problem. There are so many things i expect from him to be a man but he is still a boy, i love this guy to death but i want him to man up.
What should i do ??? i am marrying this guy and am a bit scared .
I need help

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Does anybody else feel like they are too smart or is it just me?😂😂😂

Not like academia smart but do you feel like you’re smarter than everyone around you. Is that a common thing?
Look, I’m humble, I never said this out loud. I just want to know if it’s a common thing.

I know, I know Smartness on its own doesn’t guarantee you success . If you are smart and unsuccessful demo you are doomed. Your smart a$$ knows, you don’t deserve to be here and you will be sad all the time.
I also know, just because you feel that way doesn’t mean you are necessarily smart.

So back to my question, do you feel you are smarter than most around you?

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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To For yall humbled,grateful person and thos confused by the bitchs who says theresome, horny ,everyday watching porn and those boys who still addicted to masturbation and watchin porn everyday it ain't fun to vent her vent ur vent to ur god hulum yakalu mefthew esu ga endehone gn ezi meto endezi malet doesn't make ur sin simpler ik bzu sewoch alachuh gra yetegabachuh enesun semtachu gra endatgabu at the end of the day the hot bitchs ain't get real MAN they belongs to street so True real man may be wants to fuck hot chiks but wants prioritize to marry kbruan yetebekch ena kuru yehonechwan women nw and you will get the perfect and real father to ur sons like ur father who raised u well !pls 🙏 don't get confused by thes Bitchs trick and worthless Life style every fuckin Real G will find out her past before the wedding if he doesn't care about her past or can't reaches out she married just simp or useless boy
Keep it in mind Betam bzu ጨዋ sew alachuh don't let them fool u 🙏
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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hey am 21 girl
I'm here to ask u st Which is unique from others
I'm uni student and I wanted to apply for scholarships but I didn't have much knowledge about it at that time and even I'm not from some international schools and don't have any one who is able to tell me the essential things that requires for scholarships so guys any one who have any idea( if u have experience demo wow)about it can u please help me :)

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Don’t you hate to be a silent person? … I mean if you are.
I don’t know what on earth happened to me, I have always have been dead silent. My energy is so cold and I hate it. The funny part is, I know it. I just don’t know how to change it.
I feel like I have so much potential to be this energetic, happy guy but I look always sad.
On paper I shouldn’t be like this, I have everything I need to be happy and energetic. If you look at me, min golobet new mitlut. Bicha ende lij salborik lijnetie alefe, ahun demo wetatnetiem eyalefe new.

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hey vent , this is the case be achru , am dating these 3 girls at once , dro I used to be faithful for the first one and I tried to do stuffs for her but once I found out she ain't sacrifice a thing for me (she is sooo selfish), I gave the chance for the second girl , we knew each other before even the first one but we stay friends keza we agreed to get together n 'then I felt myself , she is sooo nice and perfect . I don't even know how to say it . But the problem is I think she is too good for me , she might leave some day idk why but I think like this but she is perfect eko , we have never fought in the times we were together . Finally , the third girl came in Idk how but we dated but she seem a player n shit , also she look good person at the same time , giving me mixed vibes . Guys what shall I do ??

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hi I'm m 23 soon to be 24 and I'm having troubles like idknw but many people hates me or I feel that and most of them strange but people that know me close don't hate me and 2 second one is my results I'm uni student 3rd year and my gpa is not good is gpa necessary for successful life 3rd I don't want to live iwana doe like ifeel like I'm useless what should I do ?

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29 сентября 2024 19:32

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I’m not sure how I ended up here, but I’ve been feeling lonely for quite some time now. I used to think it was just a phase that everyone goes through, but lately, it’s been hard to manage. Sometimes, I feel like I’ve forgotten how to truly live. It’s been so long since I’ve opened up and shared my true feelings, and now, everything feels so heavy. I’m exhausted from trying to appear perfect to those who look up to me. But life has also taught me not to give up. I’m here, holding on to the hope that things can get better. I want to believe that it’s okay to feel this way sometimes. I also wanna know if there's anyone who relates and what coping mechanism helped.

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29 сентября 2024 18:06

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So I just found out that my cousin is a pron star I was so shocked and kinda disappointed her name is kalkidan and idk what to say she sends us stuff like phones money and some times amazing shoe's but we always wondered how she afford those stuff when we ask her she says she is doing some work but doesn't tell us until I found out and GOD it's hard to watch it's just me that knows I Hope the rest of the family doesn't know that It's just sad 😭

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29 сентября 2024 17:39

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Helloooooo ❤️I am a 26 year Christian girl whose sexual needs are much greater than your average female. I only had one sexual partner with whom I did it with not more than 5 times. I want to explore my sexual needs within a relationship gin since everyone is judgmental about such stuff specially our Christian community(which I understand) I am restraining my needs which is affecting my daily life. I am at the point where I am masturbating excessively. Do you guys think it is that big of a deal plus I told my now boyfriend that I am not having sex until marriage coz I fear that he will not love me after the sex, should I do it with him? If so how can I give him a hint that I want to without being obvious because he stopped being touchy after I told him I am waiting. Sorry for being all over the place but tell me y'alls opinions on sex and all thank you

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hey everyone am 19 F here is the thing there is this guy that I dated at grade 9 before that we always had crush on each other since we were kids but after a yr we broke up and I found out he cheated on me, back then I wasn’t broken hearted more like I didn’t even care he tried to get back together but I just shut him out, but now after 4 yrs even tho I moved to another city, started a new life n no contact between us I can’t get him out of my mind, I think about him 24/7 n am rly confused why after all these years. So I want to ask u if u guys know any-ways how I can get over him.

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hey there am 22 M just share smt for first
It's happens before 9 or 8 years ago i fall in love with konjya lig at that time am in 6 grade my first love enam kezan giza gemro leben le ande lig setche eynorku nw still kezan giza gemro abren honen nbr lemalet yemichgr situation nw i really love her yezane lay hula be class ebeltat nbr abren endnmar beya ministryn awke wedkyalw keza mn yargal ebet eza endketl selalfelgu asotugh even keza kewetaw buhal 3 years andem ken salayat leresat alchalkum nbr yezan seat lay esuan lemrsat beye bezu setoch gar mehon gemre nbr gn ensun kemgudat wechi mnm ytfetre ngr yelm kezam ke 3 amet buhala mawrat gemrn keza giza befit endmafekrat ngryat nbr ligoch nen mnamn bela eshi satlegh kerec enji kezam ende addis mawrat gemrn kesua gar lemhon beye 12 ensu school gebaw yezan seat endasebkut sayhon kere it have alot of memory so am started dealing with that and i didn't have atime kesua gar lemhon kezam ametu endza eyale alke bzu giza endagegat tetykegh nbr gn beza seat huge short of money lay nbrku so it's shame for me lezam eytrarakn metan keza ke lela sw gar nech sibal semaw at that time i need to move on beye ke lela sw gar honku gn esuanm lgodat hone ahunm lebe yalw kesua gar nw semonun sawerat yezane laym kemanm gar endalnbrech ngrechigh gn ahunm esua gar behed eshi atlem gra yemtagaba lig nat abren endnhon atfelgm gn selrasua bzu ngr tngregalech mesmat yelelubghn ngroch hula esua malet lene hiwet mesakat ke fetati betach telkua sew nat yaleghn manemt endyez argagalech gn... ena guys need help fr thanks

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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I’m going to make this as short as possible.

Is it possible to still be in love with someone even if you have broken up almost a year and a half ago?
I’m I normal for that? I’m genuinely curious. And when I tell you I’m not over him I mean, I think about him almost every day and miss him all the time. And always imagine that the two of us are going to end up together. I guess I’m that delusional.

Anyways let me know what you guys think. Thank you in advance!

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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I'm 24 m
we known each other for over 3 years and i liked her since then and we learn in same college. we text almost everyday and we talk about everything but we met by coincidence often when we met she blush she scream she hugs me very tight for long min she rubs my hands and didn't want to let go me and i told her couple months ago that i have feeling for her but she said she had enough anxiety and problems to deal with if she thinks about to start r/ship first she have to clear her head and i told her that my intentions are to marry her not just for dating and she can take time as much as she wants and i'll wait for her .another thing is i have process ongoing and when i'm finished with my class am going to leave and she knows that and i think maybe she afraid that i'll leave her high and dry. i told her if she wants assurance i'll marry her tmrw if that makes her relief b/c i'm financially stable i don't struggle but she said u r the only one i trust with my full heart that is not the case at all its just i don't want to start r/ship right now and i told her that i understand her and we'll be as before .after that she was like lets meet we shouldn't wait for opportunity to meet however we didn't talk about that topic for over 3 months .and the thing she do and she says is completely different i confused whether she have feeling for me or not and i tell her that i want clarification and for the last time i asked her to give me definite answer and obviously the answer is the same as before and i tell her to let me go and she start to cry even kneel down and beg me not leave her and i don't know if she is playing or not i really need ur help i have no idea what to do.

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Sup guys it's mayu Im 21 Im in luv with someone gn demo ego alebet betam I now yewdegale gn ende lij new miyaregew gn like mejemriya akababi bahariw betam new des yemilew ahun demo ke merat tenesto makuref new seraw serkew demo alekso new mimelesew mnabate laregew

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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I'm 21 years old(M). 3rd year yeUniversity temari negn.Ena chgre mn meselachu..Ene kedro jemro slefkr swera mfera sew hogne new yadekut. highschool eskders fkrm hone fkregna meyaz mnm sense aysetegnm neber.Neger gen highschool sders hulum neger tekeyere.Slefkr maseb jemerkugn fkregna meyazm yamregn neber bhonm dfretu slalneberegn mnm set salkerb noreyalehu.Mekreb bcha sayhon setoch skerbugn erasu mshesh sew eyehonku koyehu.i'm very afraid of them.High school hogne slefkr bzu eyasebku university wust slemtnoregn fkregna asb neber.Ya neger endtagesm redtogn neber.Gen ahun university sgeba negerochn brtekarani agegnehuwachew.Endewm ahun sasb fkregna mechem lnoregn maychl ymeslegnal.Manm mfelgegnm aymeslegnm.Lelaw demo yhen eyametabign yalew kene astesaseb garm mimesasel neger migegnm aymeslegnm.Hule masbew yetm lgegn maychl mimeslew yefkr hywet(kelib mtwed mwedat matkedagn malkedat misasalat etc) neger gen bzu negerochn say endezih yalem aymeslm.Ehe masbew negerm kentu hono eyekere new.Ene mnm fkregna lagegn mchlm aymeslegnm miknyatum criteriawochem alu edlochm yelu.Setochn kome lamawrat erasu eferalehu beza beza mekrebm alchalkum edlochunm eyagegnehu aydelem.Bezih reged hywete saysera yeuniversity koytahe lyalk new.Lelaw sgate ande keUniversity kewetahu kezih yeteshale edlochm mnorum aymeslegnm edl sil kesetoch gar lemegenagnet.Leza tesfa eyekoretku new......WHAT DO YOU ADVISE ME?

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hi, I've been reading a lot of vents about not being able to stop watching pornos or self gratification of some sort. Even something like thinking you're gay or attracted to some weird shit you mention. Just hear me out.
What if you tried the Pavlov method, the classical conditioning. The basics of it for those who don't know is( FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW), this scientist Pavlov trained a dog to salivate at the sound of a bell by always presenting the dog food with a ring of a bell. He would ring a bell and then give the dog food. Associated with food usually is salivation, so when food is presented along with the sound of the bell, the dog salivate. After multiple same scenarios, when the bell is rang with out food actually being served the dog salivate. Making the dog salivate for the sound of a bell.
I think that most people who are addicted to porn are usually religious people who know it's wrong,but still keep doing it because the urge outweighs everything else. And I do think prayers work, but thats for spiritually strong people. Usually sexual urges are caused by something we see on our phones, either social media or movies. or even books. So when ever you see something that arouses you, you immediately search for something else you know would disgust you. Do this continuously, when you see either a sex scene in a movie or watch a heated scene or anything to your respective fetishes look at something gross or disgusting, maybe somebody puking or some grave disease. In the end you'll learn to associate the sex scenes or fetishes not with the urge to self satisfy, but with disgust.
It may backfire and cause you to even feel disgusted with normal couple sex, but not if you associate it with a fetish and not necessarily sex it self. I don't know, it was just a thought that came to me.

Don't be patronizing or use ugly words please, I'm just thinking out loud, if it works great. If you think I'm stupid and just skip, great. If it doesn't work, idk maybe just pray. Good night to y'all. Love you.

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hey there y'all 21 M here. Mine is not a vent or any thing of that sort, it's kind of a work related question. I import a lot of stuff from Dubai and business is going well and all but one of my clients asked if I could bring them a car spare parts, parts that are not composed of any type of metal tho like it's totally made out of rubber ena does anyone know where I can find someone who could import here from Dubai without keret and of course am willing to pay a good amount of money.

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hi m 16 idk why I'm venting tbh I don't even have a real problem but i just like to feel sad most of the time pretend I'm in love while I'm actually not n I just can't seem to be happy no matter how I try to be n I don't get it since I got a bunch of friends I'm doing good at school I got a dope family and I just can't figure out what's wrong.mn abate endehonku gn enja I just wanna play 🏀 all day n night listening to a slow music uk leave everything n everyone behind but I also feel kinda selfish too.fuckkkkkk me

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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21, M
Girls I have a question. So I got a little problem…I don’t last that long like 2 minutes max, and maybe less if i have been making out for so long. But! Problem with finishing too soon for many guys is that the D will not be hard anymore right? But i don’t have that problem my D wont get soft even after like 4 or 5 rounds it even wont get soft between rounds, so far 2 girls have asked me if i had took any pills. Which i did not. So my question is if it stays hard will cumming too soon matter that much?

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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Sooo guys
I find myself in a mix of emotions, stuck in a stressful situation that I just can’t seem to sort out.

I have a boyfriend whom I care for deeply. He’s kind, understanding, loving, and devoted to his faith. He serves at church, he so humble and has a wonderful sense of humor. With him, I feel the safest I can truly be myself. We’ve built a strong friendship along with our romantic relationship,
he’s the first person I call when something happens, even if it’s something silly.

We’ve been dating for about 9-10 months now, and we’re even planning to work together to achieve financial stability before getting married. Both of us are college students.

However, as our relationship has grown, so have my insecurities. At first, I noticed he seemed to connect more easily with women than men, which made me feel jealous. I would have dreams of him cheating, which led me to check his phone and read his messages which I didn’t find anything . Despite my worries, he remained patient and committed to addressing my feelings and discover the underlying issues of my insecurities.

He’s opened up to me about his past struggles with pornography and addiction, and I admire his honesty look he said in the pastttt now now but in the past

But then, one day, while looking through his phone, I found his search history and saw that he still watches porn. This discovery made me doubt everything’s. When I talked to him about it, he admitted that he still struggles with pornography and masturbation. I assured him that I would support him on his journey toward sexual purity, but deep down, I know that only he and God can truly handle this challenge.

Now, I’m left dealing with fear.
fear that his struggle with pornography could affect our relationship, especially once we’re married. As someone who wants a strong relationship based on biblical values, I'm starting to question everything. Thoughts race in my mind: maybe he isn’t the right person for me.Maybe we both need to work on ourselves individually. .Part of me wants to leave because I’ve already made compromises for our relationship to grow.

Yet, here I am, feeling sick and nauseous at the very thought of leaving him. I don’t believe in the idea that “he will change” I truly believe that who I marry is who he is right now. So here I stand confused and seeking guidance.

I genuinely need your advice. What do I dooo ???? Help!!!

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30 сентября 2024 04:00

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From the outside, it looks like I've got it all—successful career, nice cars, dining at great restaurants. But despite all the achievements, I’m still missing something real. It's hard to find someone genuine who I can trust and share this with. I want more than just material things—I want real intimacy, a true connection. It’s frustrating to have everything I thought would make me happy, but still feel like something important is missing.

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29 сентября 2024 18:06

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Guys ene 1 teyake endemelesulegn new yemetahut
Rasen matefat meftehe new?

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29 сентября 2024 17:40

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hey guys 👋, im 20 years old and relationship west nagn . 2 yr hononal and i like my bf , like betam caring naw betam ,even sentala betam naw milamngn even yalksal andande betam sentala 😭, and beka he's betam teru lene . gennn ahun lay fetari yeker yeblgn , hes friend lay crush albgn ,like i don't know becha .i don't wanna break his heart ale adel yedberal , ik his friend ga fiker endlyazgn .crush bcha ena men laderg pls melsulgn

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29 сентября 2024 17:38

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M24 and i feel like shit... turns out my best friend of 8 years was depressed and even at one time tried to take her life and my stupid, selfish ass didnt notice even when she was trying to reach out to me i couldnt answer her call for help, she says that it isnt my fault but i know if i had been there for her she wouldnt even attempt it. I'm beyond relieved nothing happened to her and from now on i plan on being there for her when she needs me, i see this as a second chance from god

And for people out there reading this please watch out for the people around you, they might be suffering
For people who are suffering i hope u have people that u can talk to and learn slowly to live a good life but if u want some anonymous person u can confide in instead u can talk to me or any good Samaritan down in the comments

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hey everyone! I’m a 23-year-old girl, and I wanted to share why I’m still single. I crave a relationship where we can both celebrate our individual successes and happiness. I want a partner who inspires me, someone excited about their life and eager to share that joy—not someone who constantly complains or feels incomplete without me.

It can be exhausting to be around someone who seems unhappy or relies on me for their happiness. I don’t want to be anyone’s emotional crutch I’m looking for someone who is already thriving on their own and can bring their own light into the relationship. It’s all about two happy individuals coming together to create something beautiful, not one person trying to fix the other. If you feel the same way or have thoughts to share, I’d love to hear from you!

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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Hi, happy new year y'all. I'm 23 M. Here is the thing, I've a girlfriend and it's been a couple years since we started dating. We love each other with no limits She would do anything for me. The problem is her family wants her to marry and they always try to introduce her with some rich man and ask her if she is interested in marrying but thanks to her she won't hesitate to reject and I was confident enough about not losing her. I am broke asf I don't even have a job but I always think that I would make it and have the dream life with her but now I start doubting myself what if I don't make it?! what if i am wasting her time?! I mean she could live a better life if she wouldn't choose me. She is the love of my life I really want to marry her but at the same time this doubt is making me hate myself

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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It’s an endless cycle.

I hesitantly walked to the first floor and entered the room. It was filled with people- packed, to say the least. There wasn’t a single open table. Every person seemed to be with someone else: groups of male friends, female friends, couples, kids with their parents. I sat onto a couch by the door, alongside two other people, waiting for a table to free up. As I observed everyone chatting, laughing, and enjoying each other’s company, I second guessed my decision to come here. Little did I know that Sunday afternoons at such a place were for groups, not be by loners. "I should have stayed at home, snacks in hand, watching my favorite series for the umpteenth time", murmered to myself. But no, I was not backing down now.

I took out my phone and pretended to take a call. “Hey… yeah, I’m good… of course, I’m here… waiting for you… you’ll be late?… no problem… should I order?… but if the food arrives, I’m eating—I’m starving…hehehe.. don’t think I’ll wait… see ya.” I fake-ended the call.

I saw an open table and stood up, only to be intercepted by others who were waiting beside me—awkward moment one. I spotted another table, but the chair was too high. I swallowed my anxiety, walked through the crowd, and sat. my dress got caught in the chair and nearly tipped me off—awkward moment two. I moved to another table in the center, which two guys had just left. The table wasn’t yet cleaned, but I sat there anyway.

I plugged in my airpods and kept doomscrolling. Phone, oh phone, how indebted I am to you! I was doing everything I could in my power to look like i was awaiting company or enjoying my time alone. Yet, reality was far from it. Though I was proud of myself for hanging out alone, I was envious of everyone in there. I envied the female friends laughing together, the male friends discussing football and joking, the couples being all lovey dovey, and the kids having fun with their parents. I envied everyone, except myself.

“Yay,” I chanted to myself as I noticed another group leaving a seat in the far corner. I rushed to it, sitting with my back to the crowd and facing the window. No one could see that I was alone; no one would judge or pity me for eating solo—ah, how comfy! Wait, is that a “self-service” sign I see?? Never mind, I could endure it one last time as long as I had this secluded seat.

The food—the very thing that had drawn me into this crowded place alone—arrived. For a moment, my inner thoughts ceased as I savored it. Then they resumed,
"Are you, for once and all, ready to accept your loneliness?
"Is this the reflection of your self assurance, or merely a reminder of its failure?"
"For how many years will this continue? till you're 26? till 30? till 50? or till you gone for good"
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.
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They wont stop unless I made them.

I got up and left.

It’s an endless cycle, but i have tried.

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29 сентября 2024 04:00

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I'm 21 years old(M). 3rd year yeUniversity temari negn.Ena chgre mn meselachu..Ene kedro jemro slefkr swera mfera sew hogne new yadekut. highschool eskders fkrm hone fkregna meyaz mnm sense aysetegnm neber.Neger gen highschool sders hulum neger tekeyere.Slefkr maseb jemerkugn fkregna meyazm yamregn neber bhonm dfretu slalneberegn mnm set salkerb noreyalehu.Mekreb bcha sayhon setoch skerbugn erasu mshesh sew eyehonku koyehu.High school hogne slefkr bzu eyasebku university wust slemtnoregn fkregna asb neber.Ya neger endtagesm redtogn neber.Gen ahun university sgeba negerochn brtekarani agegnehuwachew.Ena hula sasb fkregna mechem lnoregn maychl ymeslegnal.Manm mfelgegnm aymeslegnm.Lelaw demo yhen eyametabign yalew kene astesaseb garm mimesasel neger migegnm aymeslegnm.Hule masbew yetm lgegn maychl mjmeslew yefkr hywet(kelib mtwed mwedat matkedagn malkedat misasalat etc) neger gen bzu negerochn say endezih yalem aymeslm.Ehe masbew negerm kentu hono eyekere new.Ene mnm fkregna lagegn mchlm aymeslegnm miknyatum criteriawochem alu edlochm yelu.Setochn kome lamawrat erasu eferalehu beza beza mekrebm alchalkum edlochunm eyagegnehu aydelem.Bezih reged hywete saysera yeuniversity koytahe lyalk new.Lelaw sgate ande keUniversity kewetahu kezih yeteshale edlochm mnorum aymeslegnm edl sil kesetoch gar lemegenagnet.Leza tesfa eyekoretku new.......Mn tmekrugnalachu wendm ehtoche

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